No, seriously, the more you talk about your condition the sooner you find the reasons why as well as the way out of this situation.
In this case, a professional psychologist can become a good "source of truth". Unfortunately, or fortunately, we live in a time when personality is on the pedestal and, at the same time, a lot of people remain alone.
So, nowadays a psychologist can be the one who will always listen and will not make fun of you.
Sadly, in our country, the academic school of psychology appeared and began to develop much later than in Europe and USA. Society doesn't trust it and most people solve their problems in the old fashioned way. But what worked for one generation will not work for another one.
Thus don't be afraid of rebuke and condemnation. Don't think you are doing something wrong. Feel free to consult a psychologist (I pledge that I will visit him too).